easily irritated

i got frustrated yesterday in the office when denise (lead ra-pca) wouldn't help me get a napkin off of the microwave, so i decided to try to get a napkin off the microwave myself and so i said, "fine, i'll just get it my fuckin self." and then denise said, "well, you don't have to swear or cuss at me about it. you don't have to get smart with me. i would've got it for you, you just needed to ask." i was easily irritated and i realized that i didn't have to handle it the way that i did and so i apologized to denise later on. she was understanding enough and accepted the apology and then gave me a hug. she was nice enough to forgive me for just losing my temper so fast. i always find myself doing things for myself lately when people are supposed to be helping me but they don't help me do what i wanna do.
i've been feeling more tired lately. my grandma says that she wants me back on ritalin but she fought so hard to get me off of it and now she wants me on it again because she says that i seem more tired lately. she says that the ritalin probably stimulated my mind when i was taking it. i've noticed that i've been forgetting a lot of stuff lately also, maybe she's right.
my mom and her friend char came to pick me up at my place this morning. i came to my mom's place for christmas, my mom says that she doesn't want to go to my grandma's sister's house for christmas (where my grandma's family will be). i'm not worried about it because my grandma will probably make her go to it on christmas day.